This whole week

I've been wanting to talk to someone for over a week now. Seriously been texting people asking if they wanted to chill, so I can just have people occupy my time and mind. Yeah, it helps but they can only do so much. The true strength is in myself, to keep my head up high and just keep my composure. COMPOSURE. Definitely the word of the day. If you didn't know, today was Walnut Girl's Varsity Basketball CIF game. We lost, if you were wondering. But the reason why I mentioned composure was because we didn't have that tonight in our game. We couldn't keep ourselves from falling apart. But as of this moment, I WILL have composure and I WON'T fall apart. I'm a strong girl, and I've been through a lot. Whatever doesn't kill me just makes me stronger. COMPOSURE, a quality every girl should have...especially in high school. Just know that you're not the only one who is having problems and that everyone will go through whatever you're going through...eventually. Its just up to the person on how they'll handle the situation. As for me, tonight I may have fallen apart...but tomorrow, I'll sure as hell be put back together and NOTHING OR NOBODY is gonna bring me down. Thinking back, I don't understand why I NEEDED someone there to comfort me cus I don't. I am my own best friend, and I know I have what it takes to push through anything.

To all males out there.

The Man's Guide To Love #325 from themansguidetolove on Vimeo.

Um, yeah.

Who am I kidding...I'm jealous of all you happy couples. Fuck the single life man. I'm just a bitter bitch today, fuck it.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day to both my single and taken friends! I for one am spending it with the single people, but I do have a Valentine. HAHA if that makes sense. Thank you Cristian Ruelas for the ghetto ass balloon batch -_- Only he and Dobson would undertstand what I mean...FAIL. BUT thank you for the shoes! =) haha now that I can gladly say with a smiley face!

Valentine's Day isn't just a day to spend with your significant other but with those you love...it may be so cliche but no one realizes the true meaning of Valentine's Day. Its a day mainly for the ones you love, so show everyone you love them, no matter who they are whether its your parents or your boyfriend/girlfriend. To me Valentine's Day just reminds me to appreciate all the ones I love and everything they've done for me...which I should do everyday...-_- But yeah. Thank you for everyone who has impacted a part of my life. No matter who you are to me, if we ever had a conversation or what not, thank you for that conversation...or what not. LOL Because without you or that small talk, I wouldn't be where I am today, so thank you so much! =)

Special shout out to Cristian Ruelas....of course....I love you, Valentine! FOREVER&EVER =)<3

Love.

Over a year invested in this relationship. Together, on break, single, or just friends, you are my first love. Looking back we were so infactuated. It seemed like a good thing then, but to come to think of it, it was too soon to think all of that. Now all the mistakes we make, the heartaches we feel just seem so stupid because we think so highly of each other...but why have too high of expectations? Being understanding is what made us fall in love. Being able to talk to the other person knowing they have an open ear to just listen, and perhaps give advice when needed. Learning everyday how to make the other person happy. Don't get me wrong, I still love you to this day. Maybe we just pushed things too much. Maybe its just time to let everything happen by itself because love conquers all. Love isn't all about "you" or "me"...its about making each other happy and enjoying the time we have together. I love you with all my heart and I'm sorry I haven't been making you happy.