WTF

Okay, so this has been bothering me like CRAZY for the past couple of weeks...I just gotta let it out. Well to me I dislike it when a person talks "rudely" about someone behind their back, not necessarily gossip or spreading rumors...but just all the rude comments. Like sure, I've made mistakes and I've changed but that doesn't mean I've changed completely. I've learned a lot of things and I've learned how to handle things but I am not about to take every little insult about me lightly. Like seriously...we say that we hate it when people talk "shit" but we all do it. WHY DO WE ALWAYS HAVE TO BE HYPOCRITES?! I'm not saying I'm perfect and I don't do it...cus I'll admit, I have moments when I'm just so frustrated with someone that I just HAVE to bash them. But at the end of all of it, I feel bad cus I know it was just outta anger. I'm really trying to be a better person and do what is right and not talk about the negative things in people but the positive, or just not bring them up at all. Okay, to me, I think one of the most hurtful thing a person can feel is when someone close (or thought was close) to you says something rude about you behind your back...or even to your face. It hurts and you want to say something but it'll just cause problems. Seriously though, I rather be told that I'm doing something wrong rather than being put down all the time...and yes, there's a difference. When someone tells you you're doing something wrong, they're trying to help you by telling you what you need to fix. But when someone is putting you down, they're basically saying "idgaf about you, youre useless", and that hurts waaaaay more than any mistake you've made and someone trying to tell you to fix it. Like yes, people have told me to fix things and I don't take their advice and fix it, but that doesn't mean they have to start being rude and putting me down, ya know? I don't know, it just hurts...A LOT. Like you thought they would never say stuff like that about you...but they do.

Yes, I've made mistakes. I'm only human. Humans have feelings...that need to be handled with care. Honestly, I'm the most fragile person you'll ever meet and any small, rude comment said about me affects me SOOO MUCH that it hurts. Well...only from those who matter to me. And I'm sure I'm not the only one like that. Many people don't care for the opinions of people that don't matter to them. Actually, the opinions I care about are from the people who impacted my life so greatly...maybe not for the good, but anything big. Whether you left a scar in my life or a hand print on my heart, you'll ALWAYS matter to me. To those who are reading this and KNOW they've impacted my life in ANY way possible, please watch what you say cus deep down...everything you say is kept with me :/