Dilemma

Things have been a little different lately, JUST A LITTLE. I've been having these feelings that there is always something wrong. I know we've agreed that we'll be mature about things and talk about it, but we rarely do. We'll always say "nothing's wrong" even though something is. Or we'll tell our friends about our problems and THEY'LL tell us that we have to talk about it. I really don't want to have to do that, but lately, it just seems like that's the only thing I can do. I also don't like the fact that we have so many problems when we're not even together! Another reason why I wanted to slow things down. I honestly don't want to give up on you 'cus you're by far the closest thing I have to perfection. You're super nice, but can be a jerk...but that's how I like them (; You're athletic, AKA likes to stay in shape. You're not SUPER TALL but not SUPER SHORT, perfect height for me x] You get along with my friends, most of the time xD And you already got their approval. I never met someone who has so much in common with me, but still have a little differences. Those are just a few things I like about you, and I can go on forever, but I won't.

The thing that's been bothering me is that we say we trust each other, but in reality, we barely do. I mean, we trust each other in certain things but not in ALL things. So why do we keep saying "I trust you"? I rather us be honest with each other and be like "I don't trust you 100% just YET". I'm not the type of person to say something and not mean it. I HATE it when people use the "three little words" in vain...absolutely USELESS if you don't mean it. AND the thing I don't understand is how we don't trust each other if we didn't do anything to screw each other over, ya know? Like I didn't hurt you (I hope) and you didn't hurt me, so why do we have trust issues? Honestly...I want everything back to normal, before all the "babes" and what not. Just start off fresh...back to when we first admitted we liked each other. I hope everything falls in the right places for us. I really don't want to have to give up something so rare, that would be a stupid mistake.