Some things in life are meant to be confusing, it helps keep the mind going. Things are meant to be figured out, just like life. You never know what "life" will throw at you, but one thing is for sure...realization. You realize a lot of stuff...from the way you change and the way others change. I've come to realize that my mom's quote is true, how people will never change for anybody, not even their significant other, but only for themselves. I always believed that I can make a difference in someone's life, but HELL, I was wronggg! I would stress for days, weeks, and months just to try to change someone for the better, but as I kept trying, I realized that I am not making any progress. People will change only for themselves...if they want to lose 10 pounds, they will stay at the gym for an extra hour or two. If they want to get an A on a test, they will stay up until 2 in the morning studying. As I came to this realization, it saddened me. I wasted all that time trying to change you, while I could've have been doing something that would have at least progressed. I am not saying that I regret trying to help you because I don't. I just wanted you to show me that you appreciate how much I care enought to stick by you for weeks telling you that what you're doing now is wrong. I really don't want to sound like a control freak, but seriously, YOU'RE EFFIN' UP YOUR LIFE! I know you're so much better than that...you're greater than you think. FUHH! If it takes this much to make you realize this, than I don't know what to do anymore. You're on the verge of losing the BEST thing in your life...YOUR BEST FRIEND. That fool has stuck by you like no other! He's put up with your b*llshit for months! You guys accomplished so much, and you're gonna throw all that away for something so stupid and useless? If so, then obviously that sh*t you've been taking in has f*cked up your brain!
I've come to realize that you can't change somebody, but only impact them.
It may be hard to realize, but that's life.
