april showers

so apparently, april is mainly supposed to be a month where there's nonstop rain, right? BUT NO RAIN. that's a good thing, to those who hate the rain. anyways, its been raining a lot lately....well to me. it seems like i haven't seen the sun ever since spring break started. basically, what i'm trying to say is that my SPRING BREAK SUCKS! nothing good has happened. the only good day was wednesday, the day that i chilled with my good ol' pal, mathew del rosario. that fool shined some effin' light to my dull self. well anyways, that was basically the ONLY good day of spring break for me.

lets see, friday, april 3, was a good day. celebrated walnut's last pep rally [GLOW IN THE DARK!], plus my friends & i celebrated ms. zerreyna's early birthday. so that was a good day. saturday...alright day, very chill. ivy, the cousin, slept over til sunday...that's when the rain started. oh, i was effin' pissed sunday night. just some personal crap got to me that was so intense that it made me cry. monday..another rainy day. cried again, due to friend drama. [read previous blog "apologies don't quite solve anything"] tuesday...rainy day. cried AGAIN, due to the anger of my parents. [read previous blog "040709; birds fly away"] i know whatchu thinking..."ria is such a cry baby! she cries about everything! blah blah blah" honestly, i can care less whatchu think, this is how i handle my shiii. what can i say? i'm very emotional. anyways, wednesday...THE ONLY GREAT DAY OF SPRING BREAK. i felt so rebellious, sneaking outta the house while i'm supposed to be grounded. [lame, right?] lol. && NOW thursday...chill day, whack @ss night. shoot dude, i know i'm such a goody-two-shoes & i don't tolerate people who do stupid sh!t like steal. MOTHER-in-law! -_- i effin' swear. i can never let crap like this go...

april...oh how i hate you so much right now...YOU HAVE NOT BROUGHT ME A SUNNY DAY! but hey, you're supposed to be the month full of rain, right? i should've saw this coming...

hopefully, the month of may will bring me some hope after this horrible month...'cus i need some light, some inspiration in my life. PLEASE APRIL, go easy on me...i'm not only but a cry baby...