“Love the person, as opposed to what you want out of that person.”

it gets harder.

The more you let them in your life, the harder it will be for you to let them go.

Its crazy

It's crazy when you come to the realization to your problems is you. No one can make your problems greater than what you portray them to be. Not all problems are big, but if you upgrade them to a higher level of what it really is, then that's on you. Especially in relationships, problems are only obstacles. You can let them control the relationship and possibly ruin or corrupt it, or you can downplay them and as a team with your partner, YOU GUYS control the problem by fixing it. Another thing about "problems" are that people always tend to look at the negative side to them, but rarely anyone wants to look at the positive side of things. Not all problems are bad, they are what you make of it.

I've come to a realization that all my problems were upgraded to a point where it basically took over my life. I was depressed, stressed, and just angry with how the world treating me. But the world just has its lessons...and everyday is just a test of how you handle these situations. I've come to realize that not all people are bad, they just make mistakes. Mistakes don't define you, your way of handling them do.

Problems...they're only factors in your life, but its up to you to let it control you or you control it.

Don't control your woman. That's not love.

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fellahs

if your lady if getting mad at you, 99.9% of the time THERE IS A REASON. so save her and yourself time and pain and TALK to her about it. ask her what you did or what's wrong. its better to try to fix the problem than to deny there is any. SO FUCKIN MAN UP AND TAKE THE RESPONSIBILITY TO BE THERE FOR HER.
if your lady is being stubborn as fuck, don't give up on her. if you love her enough, you'd stick around and help her outta her stubborn ways...or maybe, YOURE the reason she's stubborn so don't be surprised of the way she is. again, be a man and accept her.
if your lady isnt texting or calling you after a fight, she's waiting for your ass to call or text her. whenever the problem is her fault, she knows she has to call and make things up to you...but if she knows for a damn fact that you fucked up, CALL HER UP AND WORK THINGS OUT. take fuckin responsibility for your actions and stop saying you did nothing wrong...cus odds are you did. i doubt youd ever consider being with a psychotic bitch who gets mad for no reason. own up to your shit.

just a few things a guy has to know. more later.

in the words that basketball players will understand

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for real tho

people should stop writing love, inspirational quotes. they're just confusing the shit outta people, cus BOTH MEN AND WOMEN read that shit. "if a person wanted to talk to you, then they'll talk to you" is the most ridiculous shit someone could say. cus what if it refers to both sides huh? and now both the guy and the girl are waiting for one to talk to the other...but none of them budge, so they're both screwed! these quotes and sayings and bullshit things can corrupt a relationship. not all relationships are the same, so why the fuck do these "sayings" refer to all of them?!

on the real, we so were good. i had my expectations, yes, but they were highly reachable. within the first few months, you reached almost all of them! we seriously are too caught up in the bullshit, we're forgetting reality...the reality of how happy we made each other. forget all the shit you read or what youve heard. i dont believe everything i read or hear, i talk to you about it first. sure, i assume shit, but what person doesnt?! its a fuckin journey, not a fuckin trip. we're supposed to go through shit. no matter how hard things are, we promised each other we'd get through all of the hardships! you promised me...and i promised you...and we don't break promises. we seriously need to calm the fuck down, we're not fuckin married. we're just two kids, in love...well at least i am. we grow and we learn, and i've made the commitment that i wanted to do all that with you. and i'm sure as hell that you did too...back in the day. you loved me...you truly did...and i miss that, i miss you.

for real tho, fuck all yallllz for putting shit into people's heads of the "ideal relationship"...because the ideal relationship is what YOU AND HIM/ YOU AND HER want...not what others think it to be.

YOU ARE MY IDEAL RELATIONSHIP.
dont you ever fuckin forget it.

times like these

make me wanna have a boyfriend :/
no prom for me...wah! yallz have fun tho!

what do you do?

when the only person you truly love is in the process of leaving? whether its breaking up with you, moving, or both. what can you do to keep your head up high without showing anyone youre dying inside. what can you do to keep your mind occupied without thinking about the pain youre feeling? it sucks when the person that hurts you is the person you want to go to make you feel better. its like after you lost them, you lost everything...

fuck self esteem

not gonna lie, feeling pretty fuckin low right now. so vulnerable, i'm almost willing to do anything to get me up again...maybe i'll fuck up from time to time, but i'll never lose who i am cus God made me better than that. good luck to me.

I can never understand.

So its times like this when we're not texting...I text you first cus I miss you and I want to talk. But then you give me short, vague responses as if you don't want to talk. I ask if you're alright, then you get mad at me for asking, saying I'm annoying. So I stop texting you. Then you get even more mad at me for not texting you. Well what do I say when you say I'm annoying? What can I say to "k" or "okay" or "idk"? Its like when I start conversations with you, you can never keep them going. I don't know, maybe I'm thinking too much or what not...but I can never understand why you would make it so difficult to talk to you. I want to, and I would all day and all night...but damn, you gotta show you want to talk too.

hahaha shieeeet

known this shit for a while now, but i guess it never really hit me that it could possibly be true. i couldve avoided all this bullshit and games and tears and pain if i just followed my gut feeling. never again am i second guessing myself, i know when i'm right. fuck it. this is what life's about...going through shit so you'll learn from your mistakes. done.

to all males out there. #4

reminds me of my nephew =) he's gonna be superrr cute when he's older. LOL

What I need

A rebound. A hang loose night. To let go. Don't wanna feel, don't wanna control myself. Just let go.

What I need

A really, REALLY good cry.

To all males out there. #3

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Pretty much the best you'll ever have.

True and funny =)

HOT.

Yeaah, this is the one. So true.

Awwe.

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Flashback

Got signed out early today from school to eat lunch with my mom, grandma, and brother Bastie. Came home and was like "FUCK IT, too lazy to do homework". Of course, like a teenager with no life, I went straight to the computer. Felt kinda bored cus there was nothing to do...then all of a sudden I decided to read my old blogs. I posted a total of 12 blogs in ONE year! HAHA compared to the 57 blogs I posted the year before. Anyways, I read from the beginning...2009. Its weird when you read your blogs and the difference in the way you talk. LOL that made me laugh. Also, its weird seeing how up and down your life truly is. I never blogged about just one specific topic, I used to blog as if it were my diary. LAME. And noticing how my life went from bad to good to SUPER GOOD to bad to SUPER BAD to good to SUPERRRR GOOD to just straight up horrible. HAHA just makes me realize that no matter what life throws at you, with every end there's a new beginning. Even though your life sucks now, like mine...things will get better. Just gotta live through it and not make the same mistakes. I'm trying everyday to make today better than the last, but shit happens. Just stay positive and trust in God. He will mosdef guide you out of the dumps.

TO YOU: I read the blogs I've posted about you and they're mosdef the cheesiest shit I've ever written in my whole life! HAHA now I realize why you liked me so much, cus I was sprung as fuh! Now, I'm not sprung...its all love. I FUCKIN LOVE YOU and that's why I'm still here. Please reconsider everything and lesss just try again, cus not gonna lie, we were pretty cute together =)<3

To all males out there. #2

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Um, yeah.

Staring at the screen wondering how to put the things you want to say into words. Thinking of ways on how not to make it seem insulting or offending. Trying to explain your thoughts in words that others won't understand but the two of you do. But ending up not writing anything because there is no other way of saying it except just complete honesty. And eventually writing some bullshit blog because the one you truly wanted to write was a complete fail....yeah, one of those moments.

Crutch

I believe that everyone has a certain roll in people's lives. For example, my girlfriends are my sisters. I can go to them whenever I need to vent or simply have fun. But I would consider myself a crutch...to anyone. I have a tendency to get close to certain people, especially when they need help. After their problem(s) is gone, all of a sudden, we start to drift. I am one who is there whenever you need me...not to tweak my own horn, but I believe its true. No matter the time of day or night, if you need me, I'm there for you. But I'm only there for the time you need me...I guess I'm not the type of person you would hold onto, like how you would with family or a best friend. I seriously think that that's how people consider me because I have yet to find someone who wants me there all the time. Everyone who I've gotten close to has left me. Or maybe its me? Maybe I need a crutch and I've left everyone who's been there for me. Who knows? All I know is that people come and go in your life. They helped you at one point, maybe even made you the happiest person alive...but time moves on and people change. Relationships change. You just gotta move on with life and appreciate them, your crutch.

Amateur Photoshoot #1

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No Subject.

Seriously just wanna get the fuck out of here.

This whole week

I've been wanting to talk to someone for over a week now. Seriously been texting people asking if they wanted to chill, so I can just have people occupy my time and mind. Yeah, it helps but they can only do so much. The true strength is in myself, to keep my head up high and just keep my composure. COMPOSURE. Definitely the word of the day. If you didn't know, today was Walnut Girl's Varsity Basketball CIF game. We lost, if you were wondering. But the reason why I mentioned composure was because we didn't have that tonight in our game. We couldn't keep ourselves from falling apart. But as of this moment, I WILL have composure and I WON'T fall apart. I'm a strong girl, and I've been through a lot. Whatever doesn't kill me just makes me stronger. COMPOSURE, a quality every girl should have...especially in high school. Just know that you're not the only one who is having problems and that everyone will go through whatever you're going through...eventually. Its just up to the person on how they'll handle the situation. As for me, tonight I may have fallen apart...but tomorrow, I'll sure as hell be put back together and NOTHING OR NOBODY is gonna bring me down. Thinking back, I don't understand why I NEEDED someone there to comfort me cus I don't. I am my own best friend, and I know I have what it takes to push through anything.

To all males out there.

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Um, yeah.

Who am I kidding...I'm jealous of all you happy couples. Fuck the single life man. I'm just a bitter bitch today, fuck it.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day to both my single and taken friends! I for one am spending it with the single people, but I do have a Valentine. HAHA if that makes sense. Thank you Cristian Ruelas for the ghetto ass balloon batch -_- Only he and Dobson would undertstand what I mean...FAIL. BUT thank you for the shoes! =) haha now that I can gladly say with a smiley face!

Valentine's Day isn't just a day to spend with your significant other but with those you love...it may be so cliche but no one realizes the true meaning of Valentine's Day. Its a day mainly for the ones you love, so show everyone you love them, no matter who they are whether its your parents or your boyfriend/girlfriend. To me Valentine's Day just reminds me to appreciate all the ones I love and everything they've done for me...which I should do everyday...-_- But yeah. Thank you for everyone who has impacted a part of my life. No matter who you are to me, if we ever had a conversation or what not, thank you for that conversation...or what not. LOL Because without you or that small talk, I wouldn't be where I am today, so thank you so much! =)

Special shout out to Cristian Ruelas....of course....I love you, Valentine! FOREVER&EVER =)<3

Love.

Over a year invested in this relationship. Together, on break, single, or just friends, you are my first love. Looking back we were so infactuated. It seemed like a good thing then, but to come to think of it, it was too soon to think all of that. Now all the mistakes we make, the heartaches we feel just seem so stupid because we think so highly of each other...but why have too high of expectations? Being understanding is what made us fall in love. Being able to talk to the other person knowing they have an open ear to just listen, and perhaps give advice when needed. Learning everyday how to make the other person happy. Don't get me wrong, I still love you to this day. Maybe we just pushed things too much. Maybe its just time to let everything happen by itself because love conquers all. Love isn't all about "you" or "me"...its about making each other happy and enjoying the time we have together. I love you with all my heart and I'm sorry I haven't been making you happy.

No subject.

So you officially became the person you said you would never be...and for that I don't hate you, just very disappointed and hurt.

Confused. Complicated. Messy.

I don't know what it is, if this is a challenge or a sign. The worst thing about having to make a decision is not knowing the outcome. My heart and mind are at two different roads right now, and its very difficult to make a decision! I wish a had a scapegoat, and skip card so that I can "skip" this decision...but if I don't make a decision, someone gets hurt. FUUUUCKMYYYYLIFEEEE. That's the last thing I need right now. Someone needs to occupy my time right now cus I just really need to take a break from reality.

One Tree Hill Episode

Lucas: I need you to trust me and believe me when I tell you that my heart is with you. But part of me feels like ever since we got back together, you’ve just been waiting… waiting to push me away.
Brooke: Oh, great. You kiss Peyton, again, and I’m pushing you away! God!
Lucas: I love you, Brooke. I don’t know how else to say it.
Brooke: How about how you show it? I am not pushing you away, Lucas. I am holding on for dear life, but I need you to need me back. Okay, why wouldn’t you tell me about the kiss? And why didn’t you call me while you were away? And why won’t you ever just let me all the way in?