Who am I kidding...I'm jealous of all you happy couples. Fuck the single life man. I'm just a bitter bitch today, fuck it.
Happy Valentine's Day to both my single and taken friends! I for one am spending it with the single people, but I do have a Valentine. HAHA if that makes sense. Thank you Cristian Ruelas for the ghetto ass balloon batch -_- Only he and Dobson would undertstand what I mean...FAIL. BUT thank you for the shoes! =) haha now that I can gladly say with a smiley face!
Valentine's Day isn't just a day to spend with your significant other but with those you love...it may be so cliche but no one realizes the true meaning of Valentine's Day. Its a day mainly for the ones you love, so show everyone you love them, no matter who they are whether its your parents or your boyfriend/girlfriend. To me Valentine's Day just reminds me to appreciate all the ones I love and everything they've done for me...which I should do everyday...-_- But yeah. Thank you for everyone who has impacted a part of my life. No matter who you are to me, if we ever had a conversation or what not, thank you for that conversation...or what not. LOL Because without you or that small talk, I wouldn't be where I am today, so thank you so much! =)
Special shout out to Cristian Ruelas....of course....I love you, Valentine! FOREVER&EVER =)<3
Over a year invested in this relationship. Together, on break, single, or just friends, you are my first love. Looking back we were so infactuated. It seemed like a good thing then, but to come to think of it, it was too soon to think all of that. Now all the mistakes we make, the heartaches we feel just seem so stupid because we think so highly of each other...but why have too high of expectations? Being understanding is what made us fall in love. Being able to talk to the other person knowing they have an open ear to just listen, and perhaps give advice when needed. Learning everyday how to make the other person happy. Don't get me wrong, I still love you to this day. Maybe we just pushed things too much. Maybe its just time to let everything happen by itself because love conquers all. Love isn't all about "you" or "me"...its about making each other happy and enjoying the time we have together. I love you with all my heart and I'm sorry I haven't been making you happy.
So you officially became the person you said you would never be...and for that I don't hate you, just very disappointed and hurt.
I don't know what it is, if this is a challenge or a sign. The worst thing about having to make a decision is not knowing the outcome. My heart and mind are at two different roads right now, and its very difficult to make a decision! I wish a had a scapegoat, and skip card so that I can "skip" this decision...but if I don't make a decision, someone gets hurt. FUUUUCKMYYYYLIFEEEE. That's the last thing I need right now. Someone needs to occupy my time right now cus I just really need to take a break from reality.
