& I came to a conclusion...Marian "Ria" Custodio has no shame whatsoever! If something's bugging me, I will surely talk about it. If I need to be somewhere, I will surely call some random person on my phone for a ride. If I'm curious, I will surely ask. If I need to spit, I will surely spit! I have no shame, I feel no embarrassment. Say whatchu want about me, I really DGAF! kay, I'm done. BYE :]
So if you don't know me, I'm a Christian-Catholic. I pray everyday, usually before I go to bed. I pray for the usuals; world peace, family & friends are healthy & safe, etc. But for the passed few nights, I've been praying for a "sign" telling me if he came into my life for a reason. I didn't know what to expect...I thought he would be just another guy. As time passed, he constantly proved that he was not just "another guy", but more; a guy with potential. I got so many signs explaining how great of a guy he was, but I didn't really take them seriously. I just wanted to make sure everything was the truth, not some fake sh_t guys usually pull -_- Then the last two nights, we talked on the phone for HOURS, and I had a smile on my face literally the whole conversation x] These signs were not enough...I needed a BIG one. AND ONLY QUINCE PEOPLE KNOW, but I did get my sign :D
OKAY, so you know how you would get this feeling if someone was right for you? Like no doubts in your mind...at all! I'm sure everyone wants to feel that feeling at least ONCE in their lifetime AND TRUST, they will. It might not be now or anytime soon...but it WILL happen. You should never lose hope. Pray & be patient...that's all it takes. God doesn't want you to be depressed of not being able to find that special someone, 'cus most likely, it will come NATURALLY. Let nature take place and you will be fine. Let everything flow and you will get the results you want. BUT REMEMBER, patience & hope...the key things you should always have.
Love,
Ria
Sick on a Friday night...how perfect! Parties here, parties there. EFF being sick -_- Can't go out 'cus mom won't lemme. Want to go out, but feeling like crap. Everytime I wake up from a nap, I wake up with a sore throat, stuffy nose, and a huge headache! I've been light headed for literally 90% of the day. Not to mention spending about 98% of my day in my room -_- The only thing that's not making me go crazy is the fact that no one's here to yell at... AND because you're holding me down...somehow. I don't know how you do it, but I'm really amazed. Being able to talk to you and not getting annoyed to having to reply to your constant texts (I'm not saying you're annoying), is truly something special. You really lighten up my day, even if there's been nothing but dullness. Thank you (:
For the past few weeks, I was in denial. I didn't want to admit to my friends OR myself that what I felt was more than a "crush". People gave me constant talks saying I better hurry and tell you now before its too late, but I didn't listen to them. I wanted to make sure what I was feeling was not just infatuation. Before I would fall for guys like nothing, I didn't get to really KNOW them...now THOSE were crushes. The feeling I feel with you is different, its a feeling that you can never search for because it will find you. A few people know about my high standards I have for guys, and so far, you've proven that you fit most of them. As I got to know you better, you've always been able to fit more and more of my standards. You have not yet proven yourself that you can't handle my bullshit. What you want in a relationship is EXACTLY what I want. I think its time to admit the truth...I really do like you.
This phrase puts a bajillion questions in your head; What's wrong? What did I do? And the list goes on...Not knowing what the person is going to tell you adds so much tension in your body, hoping its nothing bad. It also adds anxiety because you don't know what to say or how to react. It might be good news, it might be bad. Whatever he/she needs to tell you, its the way you react that counts the most.
So lets say your boyfriend OR girlfriend tells you they're moving to another city, state, or even country! How would you react? Would you react with a "Oh, that's great!" or with an "Oh..." To me, the very first thing that I would say is "Oh..." 'cus you automatically know you won't be able to see them anymore. But if you react with an "Oh, that's great!", it'll put a bajillion questions in your their head; What? That's it? They might even think you don't really care. It could even lead to a break up...but lets not get into that. But the way you react determines what happens next.
The way I reacted last night was the b*tch way to respond to what you needed to tell me. I hesistated and didn't know what to say...so like a dumb@$$, I answered with an "Oh okay..." WHO THE FUH SAYS THAT WHEN SOMEONE TELLS YOU GOOD NEWS?! It makes it seem like you don't care, but in reality, you do. I felt like a b*tch, dumb@$$, idiot, and so on! I really do care and I wish I could've said something more meaningful, like how I really felt towards what you said. I'm not gonna do it over text, or through phone. I will tell you as soon as I get to see you, face to face. So let the waiting begin...til tomorrow, all this guilt and b*tch@$$nees will all slide off of me, 'cus that's when I will tell you how I truly feel. (:
Love,
Ria
