"I Need To Tell You Something"

This phrase puts a bajillion questions in your head; What's wrong? What did I do? And the list goes on...Not knowing what the person is going to tell you adds so much tension in your body, hoping its nothing bad. It also adds anxiety because you don't know what to say or how to react. It might be good news, it might be bad. Whatever he/she needs to tell you, its the way you react that counts the most.

So lets say your boyfriend OR girlfriend tells you they're moving to another city, state, or even country! How would you react? Would you react with a "Oh, that's great!" or with an "Oh..." To me, the very first thing that I would say is "Oh..." 'cus you automatically know you won't be able to see them anymore. But if you react with an "Oh, that's great!", it'll put a bajillion questions in your their head; What? That's it? They might even think you don't really care. It could even lead to a break up...but lets not get into that. But the way you react determines what happens next.

The way I reacted last night was the b*tch way to respond to what you needed to tell me. I hesistated and didn't know what to say...so like a dumb@$$, I answered with an "Oh okay..." WHO THE FUH SAYS THAT WHEN SOMEONE TELLS YOU GOOD NEWS?! It makes it seem like you don't care, but in reality, you do. I felt like a b*tch, dumb@$$, idiot, and so on! I really do care and I wish I could've said something more meaningful, like how I really felt towards what you said. I'm not gonna do it over text, or through phone. I will tell you as soon as I get to see you, face to face. So let the waiting begin...til tomorrow, all this guilt and b*tch@$$nees will all slide off of me, 'cus that's when I will tell you how I truly feel. (:

Love,
Ria