Flashback

Got signed out early today from school to eat lunch with my mom, grandma, and brother Bastie. Came home and was like "FUCK IT, too lazy to do homework". Of course, like a teenager with no life, I went straight to the computer. Felt kinda bored cus there was nothing to do...then all of a sudden I decided to read my old blogs. I posted a total of 12 blogs in ONE year! HAHA compared to the 57 blogs I posted the year before. Anyways, I read from the beginning...2009. Its weird when you read your blogs and the difference in the way you talk. LOL that made me laugh. Also, its weird seeing how up and down your life truly is. I never blogged about just one specific topic, I used to blog as if it were my diary. LAME. And noticing how my life went from bad to good to SUPER GOOD to bad to SUPER BAD to good to SUPERRRR GOOD to just straight up horrible. HAHA just makes me realize that no matter what life throws at you, with every end there's a new beginning. Even though your life sucks now, like mine...things will get better. Just gotta live through it and not make the same mistakes. I'm trying everyday to make today better than the last, but shit happens. Just stay positive and trust in God. He will mosdef guide you out of the dumps.

TO YOU: I read the blogs I've posted about you and they're mosdef the cheesiest shit I've ever written in my whole life! HAHA now I realize why you liked me so much, cus I was sprung as fuh! Now, I'm not sprung...its all love. I FUCKIN LOVE YOU and that's why I'm still here. Please reconsider everything and lesss just try again, cus not gonna lie, we were pretty cute together =)<3

To all males out there. #2

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Um, yeah.

Staring at the screen wondering how to put the things you want to say into words. Thinking of ways on how not to make it seem insulting or offending. Trying to explain your thoughts in words that others won't understand but the two of you do. But ending up not writing anything because there is no other way of saying it except just complete honesty. And eventually writing some bullshit blog because the one you truly wanted to write was a complete fail....yeah, one of those moments.

Crutch

I believe that everyone has a certain roll in people's lives. For example, my girlfriends are my sisters. I can go to them whenever I need to vent or simply have fun. But I would consider myself a crutch...to anyone. I have a tendency to get close to certain people, especially when they need help. After their problem(s) is gone, all of a sudden, we start to drift. I am one who is there whenever you need me...not to tweak my own horn, but I believe its true. No matter the time of day or night, if you need me, I'm there for you. But I'm only there for the time you need me...I guess I'm not the type of person you would hold onto, like how you would with family or a best friend. I seriously think that that's how people consider me because I have yet to find someone who wants me there all the time. Everyone who I've gotten close to has left me. Or maybe its me? Maybe I need a crutch and I've left everyone who's been there for me. Who knows? All I know is that people come and go in your life. They helped you at one point, maybe even made you the happiest person alive...but time moves on and people change. Relationships change. You just gotta move on with life and appreciate them, your crutch.

Amateur Photoshoot #1

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