So you officially became the person you said you would never be...and for that I don't hate you, just very disappointed and hurt.
I don't know what it is, if this is a challenge or a sign. The worst thing about having to make a decision is not knowing the outcome. My heart and mind are at two different roads right now, and its very difficult to make a decision! I wish a had a scapegoat, and skip card so that I can "skip" this decision...but if I don't make a decision, someone gets hurt. FUUUUCKMYYYYLIFEEEE. That's the last thing I need right now. Someone needs to occupy my time right now cus I just really need to take a break from reality.
Lucas: I need you to trust me and believe me when I tell you that my heart is with you. But part of me feels like ever since we got back together, you’ve just been waiting… waiting to push me away.
Brooke: Oh, great. You kiss Peyton, again, and I’m pushing you away! God!
Lucas: I love you, Brooke. I don’t know how else to say it.
Brooke: How about how you show it? I am not pushing you away, Lucas. I am holding on for dear life, but I need you to need me back. Okay, why wouldn’t you tell me about the kiss? And why didn’t you call me while you were away? And why won’t you ever just let me all the way in?
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. Love never fails."
Love is...something I need to work on. And I'm sure it'll take a life time to finally get it right.
