Lately, I've been intimidated. I haven't been putting my best out on the court. I keep holding back. I haven't started for the passed 4 games. But no more. I need to prove to my coach that I could be the next best thing. I'm not being conceited, just confident. Seriously, if you seen me play, you would be bored. I know I'm better than what I've been showing. No more intimidation, no more being scared. I'm gonna put my best on that court and play with my heart. The only thing that's preventing me from quitting is my passion for this sport...I LOVE IT. I want this so bad, its indescribable. I'm gonna play even harder every single game from now on. Its not the end for me, I'm not gonna let that happen.
Honestly, guys these days really amaze me. They would tell a girl whatever they want to hear just to get her in bed. They would literally tell a girl "I want to kiss you" even if he just met her. WHAT THE FUH IS GOING ON IN THE WORLD?! Seriously, I get texts literally everyday from my friends saying that a guy told them he wants to kiss her. OH MY GAWDDD! People these days don't have any respect for girls at all! I swear, I SWEARRRRRR, if any guy says that to me, he'll meet my fist before getting anywhere near my lips! SERISOUSLY THOUGH, it makes me sick! And what's worse, GIRLS ACCEPT IT. WTF?! Why can't girls be like "EXCUSE ME?! YOU DON'T KNOW ME!" I would want to hear that at least ONCE! Or even better, I'd LOVE to see a girl slap a guy for being disrespectful to her. SERIOUSLY, girls who accept shit like that from guys will never be respected! She has to put her foot down and set that guy straight! JEEEEEZ! Girls will keep being disrespected if they don't do something about it! UGH! -_-
So you texted me last night about you not rolling anymore and I'm like "oh that's good!" ...then you told me that text wasn't for me -_- THANKS. Anyways, all I want to know if its true that you're really trying to stop now. It seems like you've been surrounding yourself with good people, people who have the courage to stick around and help you. I guess I never had that much strength to do what they're doing right now, but its good that you have them. Finally, good friends. I'm glad you're trying to get healthy again and that you want to quit? I hope you have a fun summer...but not too fun! I'm very happy to see you trying to turn your life around. I'll talk to you whenever. Lates!
Sincerely,
Ria
& I came to a conclusion...Marian "Ria" Custodio has no shame whatsoever! If something's bugging me, I will surely talk about it. If I need to be somewhere, I will surely call some random person on my phone for a ride. If I'm curious, I will surely ask. If I need to spit, I will surely spit! I have no shame, I feel no embarrassment. Say whatchu want about me, I really DGAF! kay, I'm done. BYE :]
So if you don't know me, I'm a Christian-Catholic. I pray everyday, usually before I go to bed. I pray for the usuals; world peace, family & friends are healthy & safe, etc. But for the passed few nights, I've been praying for a "sign" telling me if he came into my life for a reason. I didn't know what to expect...I thought he would be just another guy. As time passed, he constantly proved that he was not just "another guy", but more; a guy with potential. I got so many signs explaining how great of a guy he was, but I didn't really take them seriously. I just wanted to make sure everything was the truth, not some fake sh_t guys usually pull -_- Then the last two nights, we talked on the phone for HOURS, and I had a smile on my face literally the whole conversation x] These signs were not enough...I needed a BIG one. AND ONLY QUINCE PEOPLE KNOW, but I did get my sign :D
OKAY, so you know how you would get this feeling if someone was right for you? Like no doubts in your mind...at all! I'm sure everyone wants to feel that feeling at least ONCE in their lifetime AND TRUST, they will. It might not be now or anytime soon...but it WILL happen. You should never lose hope. Pray & be patient...that's all it takes. God doesn't want you to be depressed of not being able to find that special someone, 'cus most likely, it will come NATURALLY. Let nature take place and you will be fine. Let everything flow and you will get the results you want. BUT REMEMBER, patience & hope...the key things you should always have.
Love,
Ria
